A Time of Astounding Change
I have this app on my phone called “The Pattern”. It’s based on my astrology charts and it tells me about cycles I’m going through relative to the universal timing and offers advice about how to move though my days, things I should look out for. Now, I have the free version so I don’t get to “dig deeper” as they say and really read into any of it. I just get quick blurbs, so I take most of it with a grain of salt, but I do find it a useful tool when I want to reflect. I also think it’s interesting to consider my place in the grand scheme of the universe and how forces outside of myself might be affecting me.
Turns out a cycle that I’d been in for the last ten months is ending tomorrow. It’s been a time to “Expect the Unexpected”. Beginning early May 2022 and ending tomorrow (March 9, 2023) I was to be in an “astounding time of change in my life” where I would be driven to act on impulses to realize a version of myself that I might have only imagined. “Motivated by forces of innovation and individual expression” I might be able to “discover entirely new ways of thinking and being”.
Now, my dad has always teased me for being a contrarian and it’s true. I’m generally turned off by things that lots of people like and I often feel a deep responsibility to go against the current in the name of art and expression, if only to prove that there is space for more than what’s easily accepted. So it’s not surprising to read that I’d be compelled to do something different. That’s just one thing, though. When I was reading through this cycle it was hard not to make other connections.
These last ten months have been a time of dramatic change in my life. On the personal side I’ve found myself in a new relationship which has brought a great sense of joy and has also provided opportunity for important growth. In my career, I finished what was essentially four years of learning under RZA and working on the Wu-Tang show, and Understanding and I set out to build our own enterprise.
We officially established Beautiful Idiots LLC on July 11, 2022. Since then I’ve experienced just about every single thing this cycle told me I would. I felt a need to be different, to do my own thing rather than be part of someone else’s system. It’s been an “exhilarating” and “unnerving” foray into “uncharted territory” where I’ve been forced to learn to “let go of needing to decide the outcome and stay open to whatever comes [my] way.” I’m hoping that these beginning months of embracing the Beautiful Idiot that I imagined will be the “important initiation” that this cycle forecasted for me, and that by completing it I will have the capacity to propel us to higher heights.
Whether or not this venture was the unexpected change I was supposed to experience, I’m grateful to have had the chance to realize this dream. At the end of the day, this was all I ever wanted.
-J.P.