Haircuts

Why do I procrastinate? It’s always an easy task. Some simple thing that I could definitely do right now.

Am I lazy? I don’t think so. I get up early and work out every day. I started my own business. I have lazy days, but I don’t think I’m lazy. I wouldn’t call myself irresponsible either. I answer texts and emails. I don’t have any late payments or crippling debts. Still, I find myself pushing the things in my notebook to tomorrow.

So why do I put them off? What am I afraid of?

Maybe it’s the future. Maybe I’m scared to get old. If I get these things done I have to do that over time and that makes me older and that means it’s closer to being over. Maybe I leave a couple boxes unchecked because there’s some strange comfort in knowing that there’s more to do. What happens when there’s nothing left on the list? Maybe I’d like to stick to the devil I know.

I think I’m overthinking this. I just need to get a haircut. It’s been like four months.

-J.P.