Trying Times

The beginning of a journey is an interesting place to be. It’s funny to even consider this the beginning - to me I’ve been dreaming of making music and movies for the better part of 25 years at their point, but this is the first year we have an actionable plan and a catalogue of music to release in hopes of realizing that dream so we’ll say this is the beginning.

The beginning is full of wide-eyed enthusiasm and jolt of energy. We all know the tortoise and the hare though, so I’ve tried not to blow through all my energy too soon. That initial jolt faded into a wave of what I guess you could call depression. I’ve settled into a routine of general anxiety mixed with determination to push through the year. It works for me for now. It’s not as bad as I’m making it sound either. Days are mostly good, it’s just that we’re four months into our year-long plan and our music is going mostly unheard. We’ve had very little traction on social media and we’re not really growing like we need to. There have been a few PR companies to reach out and we’re about to make some decisions in regards to a marketing push, so hopefully that will help us break a threshold of legitimacy but it’s all unknown, which gets stressful. There’s no work coming in and we’re going to run out of money, but you gotta take a risk, right?

That’s the thing. It’s the beginning. It’s trying times. Times of trying everything we possibly can to make it work, because if you believe in what you’re doing, you have to give it everything you have. I’ll wear myself all the way down to the bone because I have everything riding on this, and I refuse to get to the end of the road and feel like I could’ve done more. Here’s to trying.

-J.P.